It's Always Something

This has become my mantra. It's always something. Because it is. Even when things seems good and the week will be slow, something always comes up. Always. I guess that is just the new normal for us now and will be for a very long time.

Charlotte turned 7 months on October 18th. I cannot believe it. Like, REALLY cannot believe it. Before I blink, she will be one. She is the sweetest most smiley baby I have ever seen. I am not biased, I swear! She will give you the biggest grin, as one person said, she smiles with her eyes. Everywhere we go, people comment on her precious smile. She is finally sleeping better. I think the twice a night wake ups were tied into her ear infection. She normally goes to sleep around 7pm and will wake up anytime between 3:30-5 to nurse and will go back down until 7 or so. Since she has started eating more solids, she only has one bottle a day when I am work (4 ounces). My milk supply seems to be doing really well and she is still interested in nursing. I have said my goal is a year, but if she is still interested and I still have milk, I will keep going.

Peyton had two bad days at school this week. My heart sank when I found out. We have had some issues with him at home (not listening and following directions), but I was disheartened to hear he was acting that way at school. I guess with everything we have been through with Ashley, I was (am) hoping we won't have issues with Peyton at school. I called his teacher yesterday to discuss everything and she said 6 or the 8 kids in his class had a bad day, so he is not the only one. That poor woman! Luckily, he had a great day today and so did his other classmates.

He has been asking me to stay home and not go to work. And he wants me to pick him up everyday. It is breaking my heart. I love my little buddy and I definitely don't get as much alone time with him as I had before Charlotte was born. Today I picked him up and took him to the park for a picnic lunch. It was so nice to spend that time with him and I am going to try to do that once a week, at least. I am thinking of changing my work schedule to work two afternoons a week so I can pick him up from school those two days and eat lunch with him.

Balance, it is tough one, with three kids and working, even part time. I hate to quit my job now and it would not be the best financial move for us either. But I also hate how I feel when I can't be there to pick him up and spend time with him. I don't want to look back on this time when he is older and kick myself for not making it work to spend that time with him. I will try out my new schedule and see how that works. I don't want to miss out on time with Ashley either, but if I can go and eat lunch with her once a week, that will help on the day that I am not home in the afternoon. Or at least that is what I will tell myself for now.